Just as these questions were racing around the endless track that is my mind, someone bumped into me, accidentally knocking my Heart of Darkness book to the ground. It was that moment a few hours ago that has led me into what I believe to be my greatest insight about the book yet. Rarely in life do we do things without having the motivation to impress society, others or even ourselves. Maybe it's not the motivation for personal, private success that drives us, but rather the fear of public failure that lights a fire we can't help but get burned by.
The main character, Marlow, returns home from his ventures into the Congo only to be surprised that the world has not stopped turning. He had just been through such a life changing and extremely complex turn of events, yet now he returned to a simple life full of people he felt could not grasp the true nature and suffering that is life. He is a living witness to the atrocities that were happening during the colonization of Africa, and the horrors that the ivory trade inflicted onto the land, the people and the entire culture.
So the world doesn't stop spinning when something life-changing happens? Hmm. . . . Maybe the world doesn't have to stop rotating for us to spin around and look at the world a little differently. I can't help but think how different my life would be if I, and the rest of the world followed our heart instead of the textbook of rules that has yet to be written. I might not know where I'm going, or even how I'll get there--but from now on, I'll try not to worry. If the fire is going to catch me regardless, I might as well use it to fuel my heart instead of my insecurities.